Birthday Musings #2

​Sometimes I wish I could go back in life

Don’t get it twisted I don’t want to change anything 

I may have made mistakes in the past

But fuck it, there ain’t one gosh darn part I regret 

I just want to feel a couple things again 

Like how if felt to poo and pee on myself 

How it felt to be spoon – fed

How it felt to suck the milk from my momma’s titties

How it felt when people cared for you so much

And even though they don’t say it

You see it written in every little action 

Every single smile and even every single tear
But here we are

And my life just keep getting worse by the annual

It’s like my life is a ‘don’t do this ‘manual

Lately it’s getting really depressing 

I feel like the hate is eating away at my confidence 

They scream out my failures and whisper my accomplishments

I suffered so hard to get the jokers out of the deck

Now I got the good cards they wanna play chess now

These people counted me off so many times I couldn’t count it

Trust me my life is as depressing as it could get

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8 thoughts on “Birthday Musings #2

  1. Haha, I feel bad for you, son. You sound like a complete mess.

    When you got here, “These people counted me off so many times I couldn’t count it” I was hoping you were going to tell us that things are looking up now and you’re doing better.
    But then you said, “Trust me my life is as depressing as it could get”.

    I wish you strength to carry through, beloved. More power to your elbow!

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