Last man standing,
First we lost Alvin,
The pain was almost unbearable
But with you by my side,
I was able to endure it.
Now that you’re gone,
Which shoulder am I to cry on?
The pain is too much
But I take consolation in something I heard
That the streets that you walk on
Are paved gold,and they put you in a mansion
Trumpets sound loud and the angels sing,
As you spit some bars for the heavens
You got a standing ovation ,then they gave you wings
But I am stuck here, reminiscing about the days
I was innocent and young.
I see the man I have become and I am ashamed
I just wish you could have taken me under your wings when you left
But you had your own troubles and I understand
All the burden and sins that come with being a man
You thought me how to do some basic things,
Like how to make five-star meals out of basic ingredients like gari,shito,and mackerel
And hell you don’t even know how many times that saved my life.
But now you are gone and I am lost again
Lighting up the doja, hoping it will take away the pain
Please forgive me
You didn’t teach me to be a scaredy cat
But I am scared to look at Sebastian in the face
And tell him we’re going to be alright
Although his daddy’s gone
Like man, the lil nigga only four!
Why couldn’t you wait for us to prepare ?
You left too soon
I had to turn myself into a man,
You had some demons of your own
So it’s cool I understand
I thought we could find sometime
So you could take me to the court to practice free throws ,
Have a drink together
So you could tell me about the demons
And how to beat those
I am looking at the life lessons like “damn, I need those”
And memories is all I got
And through my tears I see those.
Late nights at school we moved from box to box
Bumping Cole, till I knew those songs word for word
My pen is screaming these words to the heavens
I hope my pain is heard
Oh I’ve started sipping purp and that’s why my voice is slurred.
My eye is welling with tears as I think about it
That we’ll never get to do all the things we loved to do together
But a smile comes on this face
When I realize that I get to see my daddy, my best friend, my mentor
When we meet at heaven’s gate
Until then, remember
You’re gone but I’ll never forget you