I need you back.
Devil is in my thoughts
In my mind
He’s attacking my soul
I need you bad.
This is some shit that I hate to share
But the pain has become to hard to bear
Sometimes at night I can hear them jubilating
The demons – because they’ve already won
The noise becomes too much to bear
That I wish I had a gun, so I’d aim it there
And shoot my pain
Kill my demons
And slay my fears.
I don’t know but it feels like that day is drawing closer
But before I die, I have to say a prayer
For strength so I can lay myself bare.
When they put me in my hole
Don’t say a word
Don’t shed a tear for me
For I found the strength to lay myself bare.
This messed up journey began before I knew it
They must have been really in love
But that man left as soon as I came around
If you are reading this I hope you feel ashamed
If it wasn’t for you it wouldn’t have come to this.
Fuck you!!!! 18 years and I am still not over this
Before I knew it, I was growing up.
Momma was doing all she could to hold us up.
Took me to the best school around.
The teachers loved me, hell, who wouldn’t?
By Class Four I was fantasizing about women
I thought hitting the road will give me some street cred
But Sundays I still followed mum to church
And poor her, I think it was about that time that I started going through her purse.
By Class Six I was crushing on Hannah
She had a good heart and a bright smile
I didn’t want to ruin it all with my darkness
Jhs 1 was uneventful.
It seemed for a moment that everything was alright.
I had the most beautiful girl in the class sitting beside me.
And I thought she felt the same way I felt about her, silly me
I still had the reigns on in my academics
It was about JHS two that Akorfa came,
All the things she did for me I really appreciate
I just wish she didn’t kill the vibe
I went to SHS and that’s where I started losing it
That’s about the time that I fell and lost my faith
Threw caution to the wind,together with all poor mum taught me
The fast life lasted 3 years,
Then it all came crushing down.
My karma came heavy
Everyday I danced with the devil,
Looked him in the eye
And told him to do his worst
I met the angel of death a couple of times,
Even begged him to take me along.
Each time he said, “please, NO, not today”
If you’re reading this it’s too late.
I managed to persuade the angel of death to take me with him.
Don’t blame me
Don’t cry for me.
My eyes had a gleam once.
My future looked bright once.
I wish it hadn’t come to this
But if wishes were horses, then I guess poor beggars like me would ride
Far away from our woes
I don’t know where I’m headed
I don’t even know what I believe
But for the sake of all your beautiful souls, I pray the spiritual is real
So I can see you each and every day
Even in my torment.
My soul is already in the furnace
I have come to terms with that
But if there’s another life,
I hope I get to meet you all again
Because even a rough ride is worth it
If you’re with people who care about you